Ta Ta, I finally make my owned avatar

so how all of you think ??
For this few week, I feel "

", why? my ex-girlfriend marry to my best friend... for the first moment when I know this, I feel that I can't breathing, feel very sad, and the strange thing is, I feel very ":mad: ". Not b'cause of he is my best friend, May be I can't forgive myself...
I can't forgive myself b'cause I can't give what she want, and I really don't know when they have falling in love. I hate myself...
Sometime I'm thinking to revange, and I feel I can't trust women anymore. May be I have to take sometime to rest and cool down my mind.