Cartoon,
I know what you're going through, a similar thing happened to me many many years ago. You feel life just can't go on and you don't know what to do with yourself from one minute to the next.
Life does indeed go on but it's painful to start with. The funny thing is that there's more than one 'perfect' partner for each of us in this world - getting on with life and setting yourself goals will start to get you out of the rut and focus yourself on where you want to go. Easy to say, I know, in your current state but you will get there, I know you will.
Your dreams of a rally car driver and wealth will come true - have these thoughts always and make them happen. I have some really good audio books on positive mental attitudes which might help you - if you'd like some, we can work out a way for you to get them. Send me a PM if you like - we all want to see you proper.
Cheers
Martin
